I’ve never read the Bible. I probably never will. I can’t lie and say that I will ever sit and read any Holy Book cover to cover. It’s just not my thing. But what I do know is that I have a strong sense of spirituality, and I do not have any idea how to define it.

I was brought up Greek Orthodox, and that is probably the faith I will stay true to until I die. It’s the tradition. I’ll always follow the traditions of my culture, but I think my faith and spirituality is bigger than just one religion. I feel like, from what I understand of the basics, I believe in almost all religions. I guess I pick the parts that exude love; THAT is what I believe in: LOVE.

There was a time I completely lost all faith. There was nothing spiritual about me. There was nothing larger. I was angry at all the ugly things that happened to me, and I asked “How can there possibly be a God who lets all these terrible things happen, not only to me, but to so many. Why are we being punished? This is so unfair.” That all changed the day my grandfather passed. I sat by his side, as he took his last breath, and I saw it- i saw his soul leave the body. For anyone who has witnessed that moment where the body becomes an empty vessel, an unrecognizable empty vessel, how can you not believe in something much larger? It’s ok if you don’t, but in that moment, I believed.

Ten years later I am still fighting to figure my faith out. I have struggled because I do not fit into one category. What I have accepted this week is that I don’t have to. I believe we are all connected by some larger driving force. I believe we are all connected by energies we may or may not be aware of. I believe in heaven and hell and reincarnation. I believe the universe is a forcefield of faith, and sometimes I will leave it up to God, but sometimes I won’t. I believe that love is the most powerful driving force, and I know I will never perfect it, but I can try.

I will continue to lead my life with Love; whether that comes from God, the universe, some other larger force, it doesn’t matter. I will be a good person, despite the mistakes I have made and will make. If the forgiveness for these mistakes doesn’t come from God, I will forgive myself in order to put out more Love. Religion is bigger. Faith and Spirituality: bigger. Me- I am bigger. My vibration of love into the world: Huge.

For now, this is all I know. And that is ok.