5/11/24

It has been a minute. A very long minute. And life has definitely been lifeing. Where do I even begin? The last submission was in 2021. It’s 2024. But I need this, just like I think a lot of others do too. Quick synopsis: I’m a mom now. And my little guy is 2! We did it! We are doing it, alone. So it’s just me and my boy. I removed us from something that turned super ugly, toxic, hostile, and abusive, and our life is so peaceful and beautiful because of it.  I think I have to figure out where this is going to take me, what is it that I want to continue sharing with the world?

I think the basis of this is that life can be beautiful despite the ugly.

I overcame infertility, I became a mom, I rid myself of another relationship that took a really ugly turn, I also, unknowingly beat cancer, solo parent completely alone, turned 40, spent holidays with my beautiful boy, re-entered the dating world and I’m definitely ready to get out of it  haha.

There are so many things I want to say and touch upon, but I know I am going to have reign myself in and talk one topic at a time. I think today is just a welcome back to the world of writing while my little guy sleeps off his fever, and celebrate that, because it’s something I haven’t been able to do in so long. 1) mainly bc I don’t have the time but also 2) Life has been very very hard and I stopped doing the things I love in order to do the things I needed to survive. 

But I am ready to be out of survival mode. I have been ready to live in my joy. I’ve been doing lots of work on myself in order to accept that and live in the beautiful energy rather than always trying to swat away the negative. 

So although I am a single mom, this isn’t only going to be a space for single moms, but single parents; maybe even solo parents like me- because it is a lot harder when you don’t have the second set of hands to help at all.

It won’t only  be about motherhood, but about being a parent, along with the struggles and amazing moments of being a mother. 

It will be a space for all. For anyone that is willing to listen, to relate, and to feel like they aren’t alone in life. We consistently see pretty pictures and get down on ourselves for our messy lives. News Flash- it’s messy for everyone, some others just hide it. I don’t. Welcome back into my mess. My mess of thoughts, my messy healing, my messy learning, and my messy sharing. 

Also expect some petty digs, cuz I’m choosing to be messy selfish now too. Respectfully. Ha!