Nobody is perfect. Especially not me. But one thing I pride myself on is not hurting people; not on purpose, at least. More than half the world takes for granted, the damage they cause, to people who have nothing to do with their issues. I’d like to think I am evolved from such pettiness, but […]
Sometimes, the easiest thing for me to do is write. Not lately. As much as I am open in describing my efforts, my struggles, my 33 year young wisdom, I am also reluctant because there are so many people who will misread, misinterpret, and use my vulnerabilities against me. It is what it is. I’ve been […]
Unpainted? Tainted. Pretty white wall, stained with life- empty and white. Aren’t you lonely there all by yourself? how do you feel when I pound you? I never cared to ask. What’s it like to be crucified and hung? how does it feel to be covered and never acknowledged? Sticky wallpaper all over your face. […]
So many people are afraid of the word therapy. They are afraid of the stigma it brings, afraid that there is something wrong with them, afraid of change, bettering themselves, afraid of asking for help…. Well, I’m in therapy. Better yet, I have been for the past few years. And there is nothing wrong with […]
On the journey to self-love, self-awareness, self-enlightenment, self-liberty, self-reliance, self-acceptance, self-rule, and self-expression, I had to figure out the type of woman I am, the type of woman I’m not, and the type of woman I want to be. Here is what I came up with: I am not the type of woman who will ever […]
Relationships nowadays. They’re exhausting. You’re always wondering how many people the person you’re talking to is talking to. You’re always wondering how many messaging apps they have hidden on their phones. How many pictures of other women do they like or comment on? How many direct messages do they send or get or answer? It’s really […]
stained. Burning my skin with the touch of your hand over my shirt I feel it going through branding your hand print on my back and it hurts. It hurts and I just cant stand it. Nausea takes over and I breathe myself in, in through nose, out through mouth- a couple seconds and it […]
I’ve started writing this blog at least four times. I’ve erased what I wrote, started again, erased, started again, erased- started again. Sometimes, that’s how I feel my life goes. Stop, start over. Stop, start over. Stop, start over, and for the first time- it’s beginning to be too much. I know I am in […]
Well, it’s that time again. The self-reflection period of turning another year older. Tomorrow’s my birthday. I’ll be 33 years young. 33. Years. Young. I haven’t really been excited about this birthday. I bought a costume since it’s Halloween, but I didn’t really make plans to celebrate. I don’t know what it is about this […]
I woke up in a pretty bitter mood today, or maybe I was just hungry- anyone who knows me knows my hanger is the real deal, but whatever the case may be, I was thinking of a few things that really just annoy me. Yes, I joke about dating. Yes, I joke about idiot men […]
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