Written by lenigianNovember 26, 2020

Fertility, Infertility, Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss. Let’s normalize the conversation.

Podcast: https://anchor.fm/lenigian/episodes/Life-with-Leni–Episode-6–Part-1–Part-2-Fertility–Infertility–MiscarriagePregnancy-Loss-elicqf Part 1: Fertility/Infertility They don’t talk about it often enough. The subjects of fertility and infertility. No one tells you how taxing the process of becoming and being pregnant naturally are, and they, most certainly, don’t tell you how ten times more taxing it is going through fertility treatments. It’s been almost two […]

Written by lenigianAugust 23, 2020August 23, 2020

Forgiveness

Link to podcast: https://anchor.fm/lenigian/episodes/Life-with-Leni–Episode-5-Forgiveness-eii39n Forgiveness It’s a touchy subject: forgiveness. Then again everything I write or talk about is a touchy subject. As my partner says: You always want to have uncomfortable conversations. Yes. Yes, sir, I do. It’s the only way to face the hard truths about ourselves and those around us in order […]

Written by lenigianAugust 31, 2019August 31, 2019

Dear Baby…

8/21/2019 Dear Baby, You’re not here yet. You don’t even exist. All you are, right now, is a bunch of unanswered prayers and unsuccessful science experiments. But one day, you will be, and for that, mommy did something big for you today. She bought you a house. It’s not much, it’s not big, but you’ll […]

Written by lenigianMarch 21, 2019

What could go wrong?

Educational Infertility: Realizing you’re not pregnant and getting observed all in the same moment. How fucking wonderful. I felt the tickle of liquid slide down inside of me- and I knew; another attempt failed. The day was going well, actually. I woke up in a pleasant mood, I didn’t allow the traffic to deter my […]

Written by lenigianJanuary 8, 2017January 8, 2017

The woman I am, I’m not- the woman I want to be.

On the journey to self-love, self-awareness, self-enlightenment, self-liberty, self-reliance, self-acceptance, self-rule, and self-expression, I had to figure out the type of woman I am, the type of woman I’m not, and the type of woman I want to be. Here is what I came up with: I am not the type of woman who will ever […]

Written by lenigianJanuary 8, 2017January 8, 2017

Sex, Friendship, Relationships

Relationships nowadays. They’re exhausting. You’re always wondering how many people the person you’re talking to is talking to. You’re always wondering how many messaging apps they have hidden on their phones. How many pictures of other women do they like or comment on? How many direct messages do they send or get or answer? It’s really […]

Written by lenigianDecember 2, 2016

As the flashbacks flow, so do the words.

stained. Burning my skin with the touch of your hand over my shirt I feel it going through branding your hand print on my back and it hurts. It hurts and I just cant stand it. Nausea takes over and I breathe myself in, in through nose, out through mouth- a couple seconds and it […]

Written by lenigianOctober 1, 2016

I don’t quite get it

I woke up in a pretty bitter mood today, or maybe I was just hungry- anyone who knows me knows my hanger is the real deal, but whatever the case may be, I was thinking of a few things that really just annoy me. Yes, I joke about dating. Yes, I joke about idiot men […]

Written by lenigianSeptember 5, 2016September 5, 2016

Be who you are- and love it.

“The minute you stop trying to impress people is the minute you gain your freedom.” I read that quote this morning- some instagram meme, but boy did it resonate. In a way, this is how I try to live, not for anyone else, but for myself. For a really long time, I tried to stay […]

Written by lenigianSeptember 3, 2016

a letter to me- love, me.

Dear Eleni, Well, look at us. Look at how we’ve turned out. We’ve come a long way, haven’t we? Remember the times we didn’t think we’d be ok? I mean, there are so many reasons why we didn’t think we’d be ok, but remember how we promised ourselves that we would never let anyone stop […]