Dear Baby…

8/21/2019 Dear Baby, You’re not here yet. You don’t even exist. All you are, right now, is a bunch of unanswered prayers and unsuccessful science experiments. But one day, you will be, and for that, mommy did something big for you today. She bought you a house. It’s not much, it’s not big, but you’ll […]

What could go wrong?

Educational Infertility: Realizing you’re not pregnant and getting observed all in the same moment. How fucking wonderful. I felt the tickle of liquid slide down inside of me- and I knew; another attempt failed. The day was going well, actually. I woke up in a pleasant mood, I didn’t allow the traffic to deter my […]

Sometimes I wonder…

There are many things I wonder about; many things I sit and think about over a cup of coffee, staring at the ceiling, watching a ceiling fan go round. One of the many things that circle my mind is second chances. Are they worth it? Do people deserve it? Do people even change? The only […]

Be better

Nobody is perfect. Especially not me. But one thing I pride myself on is not hurting people; not on purpose, at least. More than half the world takes for granted, the damage they cause, to people who have nothing to do with their issues. I’d like to think I am evolved from such pettiness, but […]

Sex, Friendship, Relationships

Relationships nowadays. They’re exhausting. You’re always wondering how many people the person you’re talking to is talking to. You’re always wondering how many messaging apps they have hidden on their phones. How many pictures of other women do they like or comment on? How many direct messages do they send or get or answer? It’s really […]

I don’t quite get it

I woke up in a pretty bitter mood today, or maybe I was just hungry- anyone who knows me knows my hanger is the real deal, but whatever the case may be, I was thinking of a few things that really just annoy me. Yes, I joke about dating. Yes, I joke about idiot men […]

How can I be more like you?

It’s been a while since I’ve tapped my feelings on the screen. It’s been a while for everything really. This year, this year has been one of the toughest, yet rewarding, years of my life. This year has taught me so much about myself-mostly about how afraid I am, but more importantly, how brave. It’s […]

I’m a Feminist. And I am not Angry.

It’s funny, this word: Feminist. People take to it in such a negative way; like you have to be “an angry lesbian who doesn’t wear makeup or shave her armpits.” There’s absolutely nothing wrong with any of that, I don’t think. There’s nothing wrong with someone’s sexual orientation; it is what it is. And there’s […]